When Thanksgiving comes around, we may often find ourselves running back to the grocery store at 10am for that last minute purchase, pulling our hair out, or engaged in a seething inner argument about whether to let that last comment from Aunt Edna go, rather than practicing gratitude as the Holiday suggests.
It brings up an interesting aspect of the Holidays. The meaning of the season often gets left behind as people scramble for Black Friday deals, and bend over backwards to give their families the best that they can with limited time and, often, limited budgets.
In a recent newsletter sent out to our mailing list, Janice implores us to remember that there are many people in the world who cannot celebrate or do not have anyone to celebrate the holidays with. It's a good reminder, especially as we eye Aunt Edna gearing up for a tirade...
In years past, the holidays have felt forced to me. Thanksgiving's original celebration seems overshadowed by the grim events that followed for the indigenous people who were helpful to the settlers that first Thanksgiving. Christmas, too, has felt less and less about the original purpose i.e. celebrating the religious holiday and birth of Christ, and more like a consumption riddled frenzy. I'm not religious, so attempts to make it feel more sacred aren't necessarily the answer.
Somewhere under all the glitter, and the signs, and the deals, and the gluttony; there is a real reason for celebrating the holidays. I would like to tease this out of the rituals and habits visited each season without much thought.
It seems to make sense to go back to the root of the Holidays. Despite what happened since; Thanksgiving is a day in which friends and family gather, after the Harvest, to express their thankfulness. Gratitude itself is such a wonderful and important part of a healthy lifestyle. Many studies have shown that those that practice gratitude everyday tend to be more optimistic and healthier.
This article from Harvard mentions several such studies where the outcome proved, once again, all the benefits of practicing gratitude.
If we are to take anything from the Holidays; perhaps it should be that this feeling is one that shouldn't occur only once or twice a year, but something that we practice all year long.
This isn't a new concept, by any means, but it's one that we see people struggling to put into action.
Exercises for gratitude can include:
Christmas, too, can have the the true meaning teased out. If Thanksgiving is expressing thanks and practicing gratitude, that I see Christmas as a time of giving and showing people we care and appreciate them. Here are some of the ways to do this other than opening you wallet too wide:
In other suggestions, planning to do something together in the future, or to work on a project together, create something, or help another with something, go on a trip or otherwise spend time together is another wonderful way to surpass the over-materialism of the Holidays.
Experiences and spending time together is what it's all about, learning and growing with each other!
Let me be clear that I have nothing specifically against present giving - it's more the unconscious purchasing of things that people do not need or cannot use very much just as a sort of throw away giving that I dislike. The world needs us to be more thoughtful with our consumption, and in the end; I believe it detracts from the purpose of the season. If getting the mashed potatoes just right is going to take you away from actually enjoying your Holiday, then screw the mashed potatoes and eat chips with your turkey.
Let yourself have fun and play with the Holiday, trying your best but not beating yourself up if for some reason it doesn't go the way you expected.
Focus on your intention of gratitude and giving and all will go right!
- Christine
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Tuesday, October 6, 2015
Are You Lying To Yourself? I was.
During our most recent podcast How to Survive Earth School recording (available on Itunes and Soundcloud), I had an epiphany of sorts with the help of Janice and Christine D.
While I do this work, and feel like I have gotten so much better recognizing my old programs when they begin to run, I am realizing that I am still operating on really basic underlying truths that tend to always be playing in the background while my awareness is distracted.
Typically, when this happens, it's because something has upset me. But rather than move from this feeling of being upset or hurt, I move directly into anger at the supposed perpetrator of this transgression.
Why don't they know what they did? Why do they continue to do this despite my asking them not to? Why don't they listen to me?
This inevitably leads me to my programs, which take these thoughts into the realm of absolutes.
People don't care. I'm unlovable or there's something wrong with me. People do not listen.
While I have gotten so much better, particularly in the area of feeling not listened to, and not taking things personally when people do things that feel inconsiderate; I realized that my awareness and recognition is limited to specific acts that I have just begun to recognize. But, there are some other things that are falling through the cracks.
What are these? The tend to have to do a lot with not belonging, abandonment, and the home.
While I am doing so well at not taking things personally from friends, family, career, and even relationships; when it gets into an arena that activates my fear of abandonment, not belonging, or my home space; it really begins to unravel my well formed identity.
Particularly in my home life, I have been taking it for granted that the people you live with simply will not care about how what they do will impact you.
Saying it out loud this last week really hit home just how apart of my understanding of the world this concept was. I never even gave it a second thought these last couple of years working with Janice.
It's so bizarre for me to still be finding these hidden beliefs stuck in the mud of my fears. I suppose some things simply just take time to rise to the surface so that you can deal with them. While this may be a small thing, it really isn't. I was dedicating so much time to feeling angry, to feeling hurt, and to feeling resentful all while feeling like there was simply nothing I could do about it.
While I haven't perfected asking for what I want, I have gotten alot better at it. What I am still working at, and which is coming a bit slower for me, is letting people know how I feel.
I don't know why this is so hard. I suppose because it feels like the ultimate test of someone's caring for you. If you say how you feel and nothing changes? Well, then they obviously don't care.
But change takes time, and so many people are stuck in their own illusion - their own programs - that to continuously take another's behavior as a reflection on you is almost insane.
Learning to remind people, gently, when they've dropped back into their old routines is a wonderful way to keep things from turning into a button pressing game.
Rather than get your hackles up, and begin to create an argument or defense in your mind; look for a way to discuss your feelings in a non-confrontational way.
The reason discussions devolve into confrontations is because somewhere we, or the other person, believes that they are not entitled to their feelings or else they are afraid that the person won't care or listen to what they say. Practice slowly, and reiterate your caring for the other. It's ok to not always see eye to eye, but compromise is a gift and should be employed whenever and towards whatever thing you need to resolve. Not discussing the problem is no longer an option. It will grow and grow until it consumes you and it's all you think about. Is someone leaving dirty dishes in the sink really worth all that?
So, in conclusion. Yes, I have been lying to myself. People do care, and I know because I talked to them about it.
http://www.miylana.com/blog/are-you-lying-to-yourself
While I do this work, and feel like I have gotten so much better recognizing my old programs when they begin to run, I am realizing that I am still operating on really basic underlying truths that tend to always be playing in the background while my awareness is distracted.
Typically, when this happens, it's because something has upset me. But rather than move from this feeling of being upset or hurt, I move directly into anger at the supposed perpetrator of this transgression.
Why don't they know what they did? Why do they continue to do this despite my asking them not to? Why don't they listen to me?
This inevitably leads me to my programs, which take these thoughts into the realm of absolutes.
People don't care. I'm unlovable or there's something wrong with me. People do not listen.
While I have gotten so much better, particularly in the area of feeling not listened to, and not taking things personally when people do things that feel inconsiderate; I realized that my awareness and recognition is limited to specific acts that I have just begun to recognize. But, there are some other things that are falling through the cracks.
What are these? The tend to have to do a lot with not belonging, abandonment, and the home.
While I am doing so well at not taking things personally from friends, family, career, and even relationships; when it gets into an arena that activates my fear of abandonment, not belonging, or my home space; it really begins to unravel my well formed identity.
Particularly in my home life, I have been taking it for granted that the people you live with simply will not care about how what they do will impact you.
Saying it out loud this last week really hit home just how apart of my understanding of the world this concept was. I never even gave it a second thought these last couple of years working with Janice.
It's so bizarre for me to still be finding these hidden beliefs stuck in the mud of my fears. I suppose some things simply just take time to rise to the surface so that you can deal with them. While this may be a small thing, it really isn't. I was dedicating so much time to feeling angry, to feeling hurt, and to feeling resentful all while feeling like there was simply nothing I could do about it.
While I haven't perfected asking for what I want, I have gotten alot better at it. What I am still working at, and which is coming a bit slower for me, is letting people know how I feel.
I don't know why this is so hard. I suppose because it feels like the ultimate test of someone's caring for you. If you say how you feel and nothing changes? Well, then they obviously don't care.
But change takes time, and so many people are stuck in their own illusion - their own programs - that to continuously take another's behavior as a reflection on you is almost insane.
Learning to remind people, gently, when they've dropped back into their old routines is a wonderful way to keep things from turning into a button pressing game.
Rather than get your hackles up, and begin to create an argument or defense in your mind; look for a way to discuss your feelings in a non-confrontational way.
The reason discussions devolve into confrontations is because somewhere we, or the other person, believes that they are not entitled to their feelings or else they are afraid that the person won't care or listen to what they say. Practice slowly, and reiterate your caring for the other. It's ok to not always see eye to eye, but compromise is a gift and should be employed whenever and towards whatever thing you need to resolve. Not discussing the problem is no longer an option. It will grow and grow until it consumes you and it's all you think about. Is someone leaving dirty dishes in the sink really worth all that?
So, in conclusion. Yes, I have been lying to myself. People do care, and I know because I talked to them about it.
http://www.miylana.com/blog/are-you-lying-to-yourself
Friday, September 18, 2015
Am I Psychic?
Everyone has gifts.
The level to which we can access and utilize them is another matter. Our psychic abilities are alot like other gifts, such as the gift of music, song, skills in sports, or business acumen, in that you have to practice and learn about it in order to hone your skills.
While some people are born with the ability to know and see far beyond what most of us are able to, we shouldn't get discouraged by the ease with which they access their gifts.
Some people are born with this door more open, but some people are born as business prodigies and musical virtuosos, as well. That doesn't mean that we shouldn't work on learning the instrument of our choice. Most people don't have innate ability when it comes to their successes.
It turns out, that most, if not all people, had to work hard to get what they achieved.
So, what are the steps to accessing this knowledge? This will range from person to person, but it certainly will begin with awareness of yourself. If you are running from point A to point B, never taking a second to care for or inquire deeper about yourself- then you likely aren't developing the awareness to hear beyond your inner monologue.
The first thing you have to do to receive an answer is to ask a question. If you aren't questioning, than this is your first mistake.
Here are a few steps to beginning to open to your own psychic abilities:
1. Set aside time dedicated to yourself and to increasing your inner awareness.
For most people, psychic thoughts and feelings will come from inside as a intuitive "lurch," not in a movie-eque way with visions and involved dream sequences, although this may happen with time! (Hey, anything is possible so don't discount it..)
2. During this time, close your eyes and really go within.
Begin to play with your other senses. See how far you can hear into the distance. Put a series of objects in front of you and use your fingers to trace and explore them, use your sense of smell and taste to explore your environment. Question yourself about what are sensing. What do you notice that you hadn't noticed with your eyes open?
3. Exercise.
Our mind is more rested and more open when our body is tired. So many people spend their days at the desk and then go home to flop on the couch. Despite the exhaustion many of us feel at the end of the day, our body has unexpressed energy that it is holding onto; maybe it's frustration from an interaction with a co-worker or excitement over a promising deal; whatever it is, releasing is necessary. Some suggestions include joining a sports league, doing yoga, dropping into a dance class, or hiking. Whatever way you enjoy using your body, make time to do it.
4. Begin to question when you want to know something.
Start with small things. Where is there a parking spot? What time will my wife be back? etc. etc. See if you can begin to get answers to some of these questions. You'll find the more you do this consciously, the easier it is to question subconsciously and start to get answers to the questions you are asking.
5. Consciously note your predictions and intuitive feelings when they come true.
It's almost like a stream that starts as a trickle and begins to gain momentum. Become aware and consciously make note of when when you are using your abilities. This is a good way to better understand when a thought is your intuition knocking or when it is something that's been generated from your thoughts, feelings, wishes or fears. Being an "active antenna" also makes it more likely that messages will be sent your way. People tend not to send mail to an address that isn't checking the mailbox!
6. Recognize the intersection of manifestation and psychic ability.
We all also have the power to manifest what we want. The intersection between manifestation and psychic predictions can be confusing. Did that thing happen because I wanted or feared it was going to happen or because I knew it would and it was inevitable? Much of our lives are created by us and our thoughts and feelings. Begin to play with the idea of creating your future from your desires. Set intentions and create goals and action plans. You may be surprised to see that this helps you to tap into your abilities, to foresee possible pitfalls, recognize when a person is an ally that can assist you, and attract more fortuitous coincidences.
Using these tips and practicing everyday will begin to open you up to the amazing amount of information that is bouncing around at any given moment. Make sure you protect yourself when you begin to play with your psychic abilities in the white light of love and protection. You want to surround your aura with a golden net to keep out negative energy. Being more sensitive is wonderful, but you want to make sure you are only letting positivity and light into your sphere.
Have fun! Let us know your results!
- Christine
The level to which we can access and utilize them is another matter. Our psychic abilities are alot like other gifts, such as the gift of music, song, skills in sports, or business acumen, in that you have to practice and learn about it in order to hone your skills.
While some people are born with the ability to know and see far beyond what most of us are able to, we shouldn't get discouraged by the ease with which they access their gifts.
Some people are born with this door more open, but some people are born as business prodigies and musical virtuosos, as well. That doesn't mean that we shouldn't work on learning the instrument of our choice. Most people don't have innate ability when it comes to their successes.
It turns out, that most, if not all people, had to work hard to get what they achieved.
So, what are the steps to accessing this knowledge? This will range from person to person, but it certainly will begin with awareness of yourself. If you are running from point A to point B, never taking a second to care for or inquire deeper about yourself- then you likely aren't developing the awareness to hear beyond your inner monologue.
The first thing you have to do to receive an answer is to ask a question. If you aren't questioning, than this is your first mistake.
Here are a few steps to beginning to open to your own psychic abilities:
1. Set aside time dedicated to yourself and to increasing your inner awareness.
For most people, psychic thoughts and feelings will come from inside as a intuitive "lurch," not in a movie-eque way with visions and involved dream sequences, although this may happen with time! (Hey, anything is possible so don't discount it..)
2. During this time, close your eyes and really go within.
Begin to play with your other senses. See how far you can hear into the distance. Put a series of objects in front of you and use your fingers to trace and explore them, use your sense of smell and taste to explore your environment. Question yourself about what are sensing. What do you notice that you hadn't noticed with your eyes open?
3. Exercise.
Our mind is more rested and more open when our body is tired. So many people spend their days at the desk and then go home to flop on the couch. Despite the exhaustion many of us feel at the end of the day, our body has unexpressed energy that it is holding onto; maybe it's frustration from an interaction with a co-worker or excitement over a promising deal; whatever it is, releasing is necessary. Some suggestions include joining a sports league, doing yoga, dropping into a dance class, or hiking. Whatever way you enjoy using your body, make time to do it.
4. Begin to question when you want to know something.
Start with small things. Where is there a parking spot? What time will my wife be back? etc. etc. See if you can begin to get answers to some of these questions. You'll find the more you do this consciously, the easier it is to question subconsciously and start to get answers to the questions you are asking.
5. Consciously note your predictions and intuitive feelings when they come true.
It's almost like a stream that starts as a trickle and begins to gain momentum. Become aware and consciously make note of when when you are using your abilities. This is a good way to better understand when a thought is your intuition knocking or when it is something that's been generated from your thoughts, feelings, wishes or fears. Being an "active antenna" also makes it more likely that messages will be sent your way. People tend not to send mail to an address that isn't checking the mailbox!
6. Recognize the intersection of manifestation and psychic ability.
We all also have the power to manifest what we want. The intersection between manifestation and psychic predictions can be confusing. Did that thing happen because I wanted or feared it was going to happen or because I knew it would and it was inevitable? Much of our lives are created by us and our thoughts and feelings. Begin to play with the idea of creating your future from your desires. Set intentions and create goals and action plans. You may be surprised to see that this helps you to tap into your abilities, to foresee possible pitfalls, recognize when a person is an ally that can assist you, and attract more fortuitous coincidences.
Using these tips and practicing everyday will begin to open you up to the amazing amount of information that is bouncing around at any given moment. Make sure you protect yourself when you begin to play with your psychic abilities in the white light of love and protection. You want to surround your aura with a golden net to keep out negative energy. Being more sensitive is wonderful, but you want to make sure you are only letting positivity and light into your sphere.
Have fun! Let us know your results!
- Christine
Wednesday, July 15, 2015
Energy, Entities, and Attachments- Oh My!
t's time to talk about something that we've been putting off for a bit. It has everything to do with who you are versus who you feel like and may make some people uncomfortable.

We are not alone. This, many of you will already know, is a strongly held belief and reality.
This wonderful reality is what allows us to communicate with our guides, angels, and passed on loved ones as well as our higher selves. The world goes far beyond what we see, is multi-dimensional, and full of varying energies.
How many of you, at a time of need, have reached out to something beyond your vision into faith to find that something reaches back for you? How many of you have asked for help and received a knowing or a sign? Through struggle and challenge, again and again, I have been blessed with the certain knowledge that there are energetic beings of varying vibrations out there to assist us. The fact is that, for me, this world is not an accident and we are far more special than we give ourselves credit for. Think, for a minute, when was the last time you considered the vastness of the universe and the miraculous fact of your existence. There are others, surely, but at this moment in history for all we know; we are alone in our ability and our intelligence. You are one of a relatively small species (comparatively) that are capable of doing what we are doing in what appears an infinite ocean of space and stars. Sit on that fact for a minute.
It is so easy to feel unimportant, faceless, a number in the crowd. We are a loud bunch, for all that, and it is a small (getting smaller) planet.
If you can harbor, just for a moment, that golden knowledge of your lineage and the immense improbability of your existence (how many of your ancestors had to overcome great struggles to survive in order for you to live?) can you see that you are special?
We are in an age now where we are being asked to evolve. Transition is the name of the game, and being more sensitive is one of the effects. We are all much more sensitive than we realize. Our sense have been numbed by our world, society, and culture and yet we still absorb so much from those around us whether we realize it or not. Many have lost their connection back to source, yet live each day with the support and love that source offers. It's quite strange, honestly!
This is all back story, though. The real reason I bring all of this up is to acquaint you back with the idea of the unseen and the multi-dimensional. As much as there are beings that exist in this world as guides to bring us up to the next level, there are also beings that work the other way, that induce negativity, and feed off of lower vibrations.
This is not intended to cause anyone anxiety or fear. Yet, knowledge is power and we cannot solve problems when we do not understand what's causing the problem in the first place.
I have known for many years now about beings that work sort of like parasites. Like common parasites, they attach to other beings to survive. The parasite itself, like a virus or bacteria, is not really malicious. It's just trying to survive the way it knows how. If you have seen any of these, perhaps in meditation or while visualizing, you will note that some of them are downright comical looking. Others are more fear based and so attempt to play on our fears to give them strength.
If you are tired, low energy, feeling negative or unhappy; it is much easier for these lower vibrational entities to connect with you. Once you realize you have one, though, they are not hard to get rid of. Do the work to keep your vibration high, i.e. shake off things that do not belong to you, engage in activities that make you happy, and use gratitude and positivity to protect yourself from stress and worry. Strangely, I find that if you do have an entity attached to you, doing this work often helps them as well, and makes it easier to separate them when it comes time to part. Often, during a removal session; these entities or spirits will decide to enter the light and attempt to move towards their own evolution. It is very healing for all involved.
The thing is that these beings can and do influence many people. After a removal session, many people are surprised to feel more like themselves than they have in a while. They have more energy, are more lighthearted, and better able to move forward. It's very encouraging and exciting to see!
Look below for an exercise to check yourself for energies, entities or spirits. I know it may seem crazy, but it can happen! Also look at our blog for a first hand account from one of my clients on their experience with entities and spirits.
We are all on a spectrum. Sometimes our vibration is high, we can help bring others up, and sometimes we are low, and we need a little bit more help. The important thing to remember is to not fear that which we don't understand. Let us seek to improve everyone's situation, even the energies that at this time, for one reason or another, are in an expression that takes more than gives. Our higher guides, angels, and loved ones are here to protect and help us as we evolve. Surround yourself with the white light of love and protection, and if you have questions about the above, or think you may need assistance in dealing with a pesky stowaway do not hesitate to contact us. You are a gift and a healer!
Entity Removal: A First Hand Account
"The thing I remember is waking up in bed and not being able to move. That was alarming in and of itself. Sleep paralysis wasn't anything I'd ever experienced before and was ignorant of at the time. As my mind fought for consciousness, I became aware of a struggle happening. It seemed like a wrestling match was occurring. I felt scared and attacked, held down and gasping for breath. I had been meditating the previous two days for almost 12 hours a day. As I sat up in bed shaking from what felt like, for lack of another explanation, a psychic attack, I wondered if I had somehow left myself open and vulnerable from the transformational experience of marathon meditation.
That was in 2010. I mentally thanked whatever being came to my aid, and freed me from the thing keeping me mentally and physically held down. Was it my own self that was the champion? Was it my own self that was the assailant? I really couldn't say at the time. I remember walking into my living room where my then roommate was sitting with her sister and trying to tell them what had happened. They looked at me like I had two heads and insisted that I just must have been very tired. We changed the subject. I asked my yoga mentor and teacher about the experience and she said just to shake it off and try to move past it. Psychic attacks weren't something that we were going to talk about, either, despite the many discussions about different dimensions of existence, spirits, guides, and angels that were ongoing during our teacher training course. I remember feeling disappointed. Why wouldn't she give me insight or advice into what happened? I felt like she knew something but she wasn't telling me, but perhaps she just didn't really know what to say.
The subject was left unexplained and forgotten for years.
Then I met Janice Corsano. All of the sudden we were delving, quite literally into very deep harbored fears and anxieties. She helped me uncover beliefs about myself that I had been holding onto and proving over and over. Beliefs like I am not good enough, I don't know what I'm doing, no one cares about me; the list goes on. Through this "de-programming", I began to see the falseness of these supposed truths, began to see how many times a day I was doing really positive things, was being responded to with caring and kindness, was being invited to join others in community and friendship. It was eye opening. Still, while exploring these basic issues and getting to the bottom of neurosis, I held on to a dark sense of anger, frustration with the world, and cynicism, especially towards matters of faith. I was bitter and wanted proof that was not coming.
I expressed this frustration during one of the classes I attended on Empowerment that Janice teaches. I couldn't allow myself to believe that there was more to see beyond the eye, couldn't help but feel that to hope for more was delusional. I didn't want others to think that I believed in fairy tales. Fairy tales were only for children, I thought, and those ignorant of science and naive as to the way the world works. But I was feeling extremely alone despite the work I had been doing to expand and grow. Janice responded that we are never, truly, alone, but it can certainly feel that way. We talked about the idea that our angels and guides are always with us. The idea brought tears to my eyes. I, who had been feeling so alone and isolated for such a long time, couldn't help but imagine how nice it would be to realize I wasn't actually alone.
It stuck with me into the next day. While driving, I forewent listening to my audiobook, and instead I began to shyly ponder the possibility of there actually being something akin to a guardian angel with me at all times. It was just as I considered this that the stereo system suddenly came to life and the speakers began to play the sounds of my audiobook. I was astounded. Was it a fluke? It felt too synchronistic for that to be the case. Stereos don't just turn on by themselves, and the timing felt significant. I took it as a sign, and began to revise my beliefs. This is how I met my guardian angel who I call Radio. I had once been someone whose greatest ambition in life was to help deliver people back to their spirits. Somewhere along the way, I lost my belief, had felt abandoned by God/universe/source, felt naive and taken advantage of, and so had abandoned my faith. Now the embers of my belief in something else were rekindled although I stalwartly refuse to put a name to what that is. It is a personal belief of mine that we are not truly capable of comprehending the universe and its workings at this time. It wasn't long after my re-acquaintance with Radio, though, as it surely must be a re-acquaintance, that I began to have scary dreams.
I believe, now, that I was becoming more sensitive and that I had succeeded in raising my vibration such that things that were holding me back were coming to light. A particularly vivid dream left me certain that there was something antagonistic around me.The dream involved several friends at a party. I remember there was a beautiful blond woman there with wavy hair. A friend approached her and asked if she would do the "thing where we disappear." I watched in fascination as they sat across from each other in a crossed legged meditation and instantly disappeared. When they had both returned, I approached the beautiful young woman and asked if she could help me do it too. I assumed the position and watched through slit eyelids as my body disappeared around me.
When I opened my eyes again, still in the dream, I was sitting across a wooden table from Janice in an upstairs bare room. The bright, vivid sunlight fell across the bare wooden floors and cast shadows onto the white walls. I looked again and saw that Janice had transformed into a man. The man went to the window and began to climb out, hanging from the sill and yelling in excitement and glee. Concerned, I approached the window and nervously requested he come back in. He made to start climbing back inside when he slipped. In a rush, I grabbed him. As soon as I took hold of his wrist; his face transformed, becoming blueish- his ears extended, and his lips curved into a triumphant grin. No longer falling, and he held on tightly. Almost weightless, he climbed back in through the window up my arms. He pushed me back into the wall and lifted me off the ground. I raised my fingers in the sign of the cross yelling that infamous chant of the movies, "The power of Christ compels you" over and again until, dropped unceremoniously; I landed awake and scared, once again, in my bed. A sharp pain stabbed me in-between the shoulder blades such that my chest rose up in an arc from the bed. I was exhausted and shaking from the vividness of the dream and the ache in my back.
I asked Janice. In a departure from the past, Janice surprisingly said something to the effect of "Oh, that. Yes there are beings that feed off of sensitive people and try to keep them in a lower vibration." She said this like it was as common as getting a splinter. We would deal with it, she assured me. Surprisingly, when the day to deal with it came, a scheduling conflict kept us from doing whatever thing it is that Janice did for the particular problem of night terrors and feelings of psychic attack. I had been in a funk all day, feeling apprehensive and angry at Janice for some unknown reason. As soon as we realized the scheduling conflict, this feeling lifted. I mentioned it to Janice and she said that that was not uncommon. They try to find excuses and reasons to not be removed.. We rescheduled to the end of the week.
The night before the day, I had another dream. In this one I was laying prone in a void, and a heart in the shape of a bird was being dragged away from me. It was disturbing and I woke up with the greatest sadness. I barely made it to Janice's before I was crying. I felt hopeless. It was so different than the way I had been feeling recently. As soon as I got there, Janice rallied me and we hopped into action. Janice sat with me and led me into a meditative state. She led me through a landscape to a room filled with my high white light angels, guides, and loved ones. A handsome young man smiled and approached me as I entered the room, and I was delighted to recognize the personified "Radio." We looked and found three beings attached to me.
The first was a blue humanoid with pointy ears and wings. The second was a woman with a bonnet and an apron. The third was a bird. We started with the blue thing. Janice had me ask him his name, and he said something that made no sense to me, then smiled and said just to call him Bob. Bob had been with me for a long time. During the course of the hypnosis, we found that Bob had been fighting for his life, trying to scare me back into my negative ways so that he would not have to leave me. He had begun to feel sort of protective of me. Bob, I recognized from the first two of my dreams, first in the one where he protected me from another entity assailant, and the second, where he tried to scare me into a lower vibration. Janice gave Bob the option of moving on, and learning more about the higher energies. She said that when an entity has been with you during a transformational period, it raises their vibration as well as yours. Bob was ready to leave the lower realms and discover what the white light was about.
The second we approached was the woman. Here was someone I recognized from yet another dream. I had had a dream of children with blue eyes and blond hair playing hide and seek in the woods when I used to live in the East Village of NYC. When I woke up, there was a pale spirit in the shape of a woman standing at the foot of my bed. My roommate remembers me waking her with a drawn out "NO! Go away!" This was not something I had ever really thought about, passing it off as another bad dream. This woman's spirit had been around for awhile. She had stayed on for her kids, but didn't realize how much time had passed. She was ready to move on, and she entered the white light easily and greeted her family.
The last we approached was the bird. Gently, Janice asked me if it was really a bird that we saw. I realized that no, it wasn't a bird, and watched as it transformed itself into a little boy with canvas shorts and a collared shirt. He was scared and didn't know what had happened. He had died, he said, but he wasn't sure how. He was looking for his parents. It was heartbreaking. He had come to me, just the night before, because he saw that I was nice to children, he said (I work as a nanny), and he thought that I might be able to help him. We approached the light with him, and encouraged him as he entered it and reunited with his family.
Having finished the removals, I lifted out of the hypnotic state to the feelings of exhaustion and elation. My body felt somehow lighter, and I became aware of energy circulating in areas that I hadn't really been aware of before. The pain between my shoulder blades, which had been chronic for years, especially when I would meditate, was gone. Since this time, I have had to do this process a couple more times. Particularly sensitive, apparently, to taking on extra energies, I have found myself waking with odd pains that feel alien and shifting radiating energy that seems to come and go.
I have repeated the process both alone and with Janice's help. Despite this, my critical mind can't help but try to find rational explanations for my experience. Sometimes I think that your mind just makes things real. Whether or not these energies existed, they existed in my head. Perhaps they are just names and faces I've given to my own neurosis and the ritual of removing them is just a process that I happen to need in my therapy and growth?
The mind is very powerful, and the placebo effect real. If you believe it will heal you, often, it will. I find solace that the way other cultures looks at mental illness could be representative of the process I describe above. When people hear voices, present with symptoms akin to schizophrenia, or depression, etc. in shamanistic medicine they treat it as "the birth of a healer," and recognize the difficulty as spiritual crisis. People who are beset by these issues are given treatment but are also heralded as a voice of the spirits. This article about shamanistic views on mental illness resonated with me. How different would our world be if mental illness was treated as a spiritual crisis, which to my mind it undoubtedly is? You can alter your chemistry to feel it less, but shouldn't we be looking at the underlying cause of the fear, depression, anxiety, ADHD, OCD, neurosis, etc.? I know that talk therapy does some of this, but perhaps, this idea of energy attaching to us isn't far fetched, and maybe, just maybe, recognizing and releasing the "demons" we have harbored is a way to allow our minds closure that it isn't getting another way.
Either way you look at it, as a metaphor or a reality, I have found great use to this wisdom. I personally think that there is much to the universe that we don't understand, as I've said, and have felt enough and seen enough now to be humbled as to the likelihood of my figuring it out. I am not really concerned with being right, but very interested in doing whatever it is that helps myself and others to feel better, take control of our lives, and move closer to being who we want. I am happy to say that beliefs and faith aside, I'm much more comfortable in my skin than I have been for a long while. For that, I can thank Janice Corsano for being a constant source of nonjudgemental support. After all, it's kind of a crazy world! There just might be something to crazy ideas."
- Christine A.
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